Tuesday, March 4, 2008

My grandfather...Deepcharan Mathura

On February 21, nearly two weeks ago, on the most auspicious appearance day of Narottama das Thakur, my beloved gradfather left his body, and passed away.
I had left Canada on Sunday the 17th February, and arrived in Durban on Tuesday, the 19th. Two days later, my grandfather passed away.

I'm so grateful that Krsna allowed me to spend two days with you. Its only because of you that our family took to Krsna consciousness...you never enforced it upon us, but let everyone take their time to accept Lord Caitanya and Krsna into our lives.
I never thought that there would be a time when you wouldn't be around - which is an unrealistic, childish notion. I also thought that, having knowledge of the philosophy, death would be easier to handle. Its actually the most difficult thing in the world. Sometimes I'm just glad that you had such a peaceful, Krsna conscious death, and at other times, I feel like my heart is being squeezed with the pain that your loss has brought.
I don't know where you are right now - that's between you and your Lord; but I take comfort in Gurudeva's words, that you are 'in the best hands' now.

Our wedding will not be same without you; neither will our lives for that matter. But I thank you for the precious gifts you have given us, given me specifically - thank you for being so steady and Krsna conscious before you left; for being so peaceful and accepting. I'm sorry that you suffered in those days leading up to your passing, but you were such a wonderful example for us all. The most important thing you taught us was with your attitude in those last few days.

Please know that you will always be loved and missed...and that you have done the greatest service by bringing us all to the lotus feet of Krsna, and assissting us in our spiritual lives.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Haribol Syamesvari

It's Vraja Renu from SA! I am soo sorry to hear about your grand dad. I am sure that he is in a much better place than we are. i have been reading about your travel - really exciting. Hope to see you soon back in South Africa.
Love Vraja Renu